Friday, March 14, 2008

My boyfriend's back!

My boyfriend has moved back in to the family room. And my boyfriend's better than ever.

Our new Tivo records in HD. It can record two channels at a time. Plus, it can access all of the shows on our old, 300 hour Tivo upstairs, so we can actually record 3 shows at once (if needed) and access all the programs (from upstairs or downstairs) on our spiffy new Tivo that is connected to our big TV.

I must credit Miranda from Sex and the City for being the first to call Tivo her boyfriend. I so understand.

I love my TV. I love my Tivo. I fully admit it.

Wednesday, March 12, 2008

Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows

Finally! Seriously, they should have done this for books 4, 5, and 6, too. And possibly book 3.

I hope someone makes a TV series out of it. 2 seasons. 24 48 minute episodes. Or as many as it takes to tell the story full, completely, and accurately.

Here is the story:

'Deathly Hallows' films are scheduled to be released in November 2010 and May 2011.
By Geoff Boucher, Los Angeles Times Staff Writer
1:11 PM PDT, March 12, 2008
WATFORD, England -- It's official: Eight will be the magic number for the "Harry Potter" film franchise.

After months of rumors, Warner Bros. and the producers of the massively successful movies will announce Thursday that they plan to split "Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows," J.K. Rowling's seventh and final "Potter" novel, into two blockbuster films -- one to be released in November 2010 and the second in May 2011.

The films will be titled, simply, "Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows: Part I" and "Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows: Part II," according to producer David Heyman. Director David Yates, who returned for his second tour of Potter duty with "Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince" and is quite popular with the cast, will direct both "Deathly Hallows" films, which will be filmed concurrently. Screenwriter Steve Kloves also returns and, by completion of the franchise, will have written seven of the eight films.

Tuesday, March 11, 2008

10 Jobs

10 for Tuesday -

10 Jobs I would love to have (if I had the ability) and/or (if I wasn't a teacher) and/or (if I could make a living doing it.) -

Presented in no particular order...

1) A singer.

2) A fiction writer

3) A Disney Imagineer

4) A year round camp counselor

5) A radio talk show host

6) A TV show series writer

7) A Travel Book Writer/Travel Magazine Writer

8) A Disney Tour Guide

9) A stand up comedian

10) A Broadway Legend

Maybe some of those jobs could be combines and it is not 10 actual songs, but hey, it is cool!

Today is a happy day!

Monday, March 10, 2008

Writer's Block

I did a lot of writing this weekend, and then I just stopped. Arg! I am totally stuck! I completely forgot what I wanted to come next. This morning, I woke up and remembered another key scene that I wanted to take place, so I thought I could skip over this transitional section and work on that, and then go in and fill the holes in.

About 1/2 of my story I have read twice - because I wrote it on different computers and merged them together and had to double check that everything fit correctly. What I enjoyed is that I revised a lot f the stuff that I had rewritten, and it is even better. I feel like I can tell a distinct difference between what I just wrote, and what I went through and revised. The dialogs flows more naturally (at least, I hope it does!) and things go better together.

In the past, one of the weakest things about my stories was my lack of dialog, I spend so much time focusing on giving back story that by the time I get to action, this story always sort of fizzled out. This time, I really tried to focus on dialog, and filling in the back story as I go along - however, I am afraid now it is too dialog  heavy - I don't know if I am striking the right balance. Again, always something I can work on.

If I can just finish it, I will be so proud of myself!

2008 is turning out to be quite the year for me, a year of new things, getting over personal hurdles, and trying things I've always said I wanted to do...and it is still just at the beginning!
 





Sunday, March 09, 2008

All Good Things Must Come to an End

That is the title of the 2 hour season finale of Dawson's Creek that I just finished watching.

Which is why I am sitting here, crying like a baby.

All the big points I remembered... who ended up with who (except I had forgotten who Jack's boyfriend was) and what happened to all of the major characters. I wanted to avoid it, because I hate it when good storied end.

It had a good run. (You know, the whole inevitable video collage that shows just how much the characters aged throughout the series).

Ah, what can I say? Life is weird, is it not? Real or fictional. The thing about these shows is, they have to end on tv, even though the character's lives go on from here - we just don't get to see them anymore - so they have to make some big event to end it all for the viewing public. (I mean, look at Joan of Arcadia - that show just ended - totally left everyone hanging - but it didn't have all the drama of a finale....)

In real life, there are only a handful of major events that mark these monumentous endings of one life and beginnings of another - graduation, weddings, births, deaths. But the reality is, as you go back and look through your life, the big changes are more gradual. You don't see them until you look from a distance.

God, I am just trying to be all poetic by trying to put into words what I'm feeling in my chest right now.

Have I mentioned how much I hate endings?

"It's not about getting it right. It's about knowing when something is wrong and doing something about it."







Friday, March 07, 2008

One more thing to add... for now

I do seem to have a hard time - when I DO remember to not talk about myself - and I try to show my genuine interest in others, I feel like I come across as nosy. It is a tough balance. I envy those who are naturally social.

Guess what? I'm allowed to use my "head voice!" Don't ask - it is a random comment and not remotely related to this topic.

I'm just... random





Self Centered


 
I think I must be a very high maintenance friend. I am probably very tiring to be around at times. It sucks.

See, here is the thing. I am annoyed by people who are self centered. However, I have come to realize that I am one of the most self centered people I know.

My problem was, I always assumed that self centered people were that way because the thought that they were fabulous. So, with those glasses on, I could never really see myself as self centered because I know that I am anything but fabulous.

(Let me be clear - I don't suck, I'm just not fabulous. You know what I am trying to say. You've met those really and truly fabulous people. Some are very self centered, true, but some are extraordinarily humble in their fabulous-ness, which makes them, of course, all the more fabulous.)

However, it has become clear to me over the past year or so that I spend so much time thinking about all of the ways that I am NOT fabulous. Second guessing things I said, or things I did. With my close friends, I talk about it, a lot, and it must be terribly boring.

It occurred to me that all of this self doubt and self reflection add up to self centered-ness. I am TOTALLY self centered. If I spend most of my time thinking about how I can improve myself, how I can not be such a dork, how what the last thing I said or did was totally stupid, then that is pretty self centered, right?

Here's the problem. In many ways, I think I am a pretty cool person. I make good "big idea" decisions in the course of my life. Unfortunately, where I pretty much suck, is where anyone else is involved. Talking to  people, going to parties, hanging out with friends.

So, when I am with other people, I enter this sort of "freeze mode," where I forget everything I am supposed to do because I am so uncomfortable. I coach myself "Don't say this, Don't do that, Don't talk about yourself, Talk about others, Show interest in others." Then I get in the situation, and I forget everything that I am supposed to do. Upon reflection, I realize that as I sit there, wanting to join in a conversation, I don't know how, I don't know what to say in the moment, so I end up connecting the conversation to me. About me.

I forget all of my self coaching.

(Come on - you can totally relate - I can parallel this to when you take lessons in something new, and you have all this stuff you have to remember to get it to work right - like playing an instrument - remember how to play each note, remember to keep a tempo, remember to sit up straight, remember the correct position of your fingers, remember to breathe, oooooh wait now you're slouching and oops you're not keeping the tempo, but remember to breathe... you try to juggle all of those little things and you remember one thing and you forget another...)

I feel like I have so little patience with myself - because I know what I am suppose to do - but I forget to do it. I feel so stupid sometimes - and infuriated because I know I am NOT a stupid person. But I do think I am a SLOW person. I am very good at thinking out everything that I need to do, but I am not very good at actually doing them in the moment.

It's why I suck at playing the piano - I can't play and look at the music at the same time - I had to memorize the song. Maybe that is my problem. I spent so much time finding ways to "cheat" growing up (ie, memorizing the songs) that I didn't learn how to actually learn to do stuff.

Anyway. What was I talking about in the first place?

Oh yeah. Myself.

sigh










Wednesday, March 05, 2008

Ten songs in my head

Ten for Tuesday (A day late)

Ten Songs stuck in my head: (in no particular order).

1) Imagine - John Lennon "Imagine all the people, sharing all the world.... you, you may say I'm a dreamer, but I'm not the only one...."

2) Maria - Blondie "She walks like she don't care, smooth as silk, cool as air, oooh it makes you wanna cry..."

3) Life Support - Rent - Jonathan Larson "Will I lose my dignity? Will someone care? Will I wake tomorrow from this nightmare?"

4) Angel of Music - Phantom of the Opera - Webber, Hart, and Stilgoe "Where in the world have you been hiding? Really you are perfect! I only wish I knew your secret, who is this new tutor?"

5) Bathwater - No Doubt "But I still love to wash in your old bathwater, love to think that you couldn't love another, I can't help it.... you're my kind of man!"

6) White Houses - Vanessa Carlton "She's so pretty and she's so sure, maybe I'm more clever then a girl like her... the summer's all in bloom.... the summer's ending soon... "

7) Mamma Mia - Abba - "Just one look and I can hear a bell ring, one more look and I forget everything..."

8) Breakaway - Kelly Clarkson "I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly, I'll do what it takes 'till I touch the sky and I'll take a risk, take a chance, make a change.... and breakaway..."

9) What Time is It?  - High School Musical 2 - "What time is it? Summertime! It's our vacation!"

10) Theme Tune - Charlotte Church - The Charlotte Church Show (Season 2, I think)  "It's my theme tune, it's my theme tune, it goes on and on.... it's my theme tune, my lovely theme tune, it goes on and on."





Friday, February 29, 2008

Parties

I always seem to make an ass out of myself at parties. Say something I regret or act stupid or something. I always spend so much time thinking DOH! I shouldn't have said that!

I wish I could be more like Grant and just be like "whatever..." I spend WAY too much time thinking about what others think about me.

Anyway.

Happy Leap Day!

Tuesday, February 26, 2008

10 things on my mind lately

10 for Tuesday
10 Things on my mind lately...in no particular order...

1) Earrings. I must admit, some people look cute with earrings. But seriously, it is weird. It is cute to punch holes in your ears and dangle metal from them? Strange.

2)Amsterdam - we're going in June. I am SO EXCITED!!! We are staying on a house boat! Check out here to see where we're staying!

3) Sims 2 Free Time - the New expansion pack. It ships today, so I could probably buy it tomorrow at Gamestop - but I am going to wait until the weekend and get it on sale at Circuit City (They better put it on sale again - they've done that with every EP so far...$17.99 instead of $29.99.) Trust me, with as many EP's as I've bought, I need to save whenever I can. This might be the last EP before SIms 3 comes out.

4) Survivor, American Idol, Big Brother. Thank God the Writer's Strike is over - more of my shows should be coming back on. I miss The Big Bang Theory. I hope that Rosie O'Donnell's new sitcom is a hit!

5) Dinner. I am hungry. I think we are having fish tacos at Rubio's. Yum!

6) Correcting - I am SO behind. I know I have barely blogged - I just feel like I have SO MUCH to do and I am always catching up! Hee hee - I know, I know, don't we all feel that way?

7) Relationships - A certain type of relationship, actually. I am trying to think of the correct word for it. You know the type - like your doctor or a teacher - where they are like YOURS, so you feel comfortable around them, but to them, you lare like one of many. For example, As a teacher - I am the only 5th grade teacher that 125 kids have ever had (and the only first grade teacher 20 kids have had and 32 in 4th grade...) but yet I have had that many students. You know what I mean?

I need a name for those types of relationships. Not unbalanced or uneven or unequal (or maybe one of those would work) but those names remind me of relationships that are unbalanced - like a parent/child - obviously that has to be unbalanced - or you know, certain types of friendships where one person does all the work...

8) The democratic race. I am on pins and needles. I know who I want SO BADLY, and I fear the other. I just feel like Obama is a big speaker - but he doesn't have any solid plans or enough experience to back them up. I think Hilary is ready. My mother in law is probably freaking out as she reads this.

9)Writing. I want to write. DO you have any idea how many stories I;ve started and never finished?

10) Science Pilot - We are getting a new science program in our district. I am piloting it, so tomorrow, I will be at a training to learn how to use it. Yipee! I hope it is a good program - after all, we're stuck with it for the next 7 years! Speaking of new programs - I asked to be on the new math consult to help pick the new math program. I hope I get to be on it!

Thursday, February 21, 2008

Survivor

Now do you remember why we don't like Cerie?

Sunday, February 17, 2008

CAG

I just spent the weekend at the CAG (California Association for the Gifted) conference in Anaheim.

The conference itself was pretty good - I went to some fantastic talks and some pretty good talks.

I stayed at the Anaheim Hilton. Grant and Belle came up to spend time with me on Friday night, but they didn't spend the night because Grant had to work the next day. It was kind of cool that Belle was able to come to the hotel - they had a very liberal dog policy!

Also, my room faced the parks, so I got to watch the fireworks from my hotel room!

On Saturday, as part of CAG, I got to attend a panel of nine Disney Imagineers, including Marty Sklar!!! More on that in a future blog!!! Needless to say, I was ecstatic, emotional, and excited to be sitting in on such a panel, listening to such bright, creative, and energetic minds talking about some of my most beloved problems that now exist in parks around the world and previewing future projects. So FREAKING amazing!!!

So of course, I was in such a Disney mood. Unfortunately, I was blocked out this weekend. Fortunately, Grant and I had reservations at Hook’s Point at the Disneyland hotel, followed by watching the fireworks from our hotel room.

A great weekend - very educational... very inspirational... but I am SO tired now! Thank GOD there is no school tomorrow!

Wednesday, January 30, 2008

stressed

I am feeling very stressed at work, due to a few students, but one in particular. In addition, I have the most HIGH MAINTENANCE parents on the planet this year. I have one parent who wants to meet to discuss her son's progress - her son is doing JUST FINE! I have another parent who makes so many excuses for her son that the kid has never "failed," and thus has learned NO coping skills.

Sigh.

I had my evaluation today, though, and it went well, so that is certainly a relief.

Sunday, January 27, 2008

Family

Dinner tonight at Souplantation - Tammy and Dave's treat.
Dave's daughter, Alexis - a ready made niece. She's almost 6. She likes me. I like her.
Mom, Bobby, Grant, and Danny, there as well.
Melted chocolate cake night. Yummy.

I love when my mom and Bobby are in town. I feel like my life is more complete when they're around.

Saturday, January 26, 2008

Buzz Lightyear

Last Wednesday, I went to Disneyland and rode Buzz. (This ride is equipped with lazer blasters, and as you progress through the ride you aim at targets to try to build up a high score. )My average score on this ride is about 250,000 - 280,000 points. My goal when I ride it is to get above 300,000, which I've done a handful of things. This includes times when the ride has "stopped" for special loading (usually about 30 seconds).

On Wednesday, I scored 950,000 + points! Yes, the ride stopped, and I was able to lock on to a high scoring target, but still. That blew any score I've ever had out of the water! In addition, I was in the Top 10 for the DAY! (That includes anyone else who was stopped on the ride at the same time I was!) CHeck it out!

That is me with the blaster in front of my face. (Trust me, it is me!)

And that is me: Number 8 BJB.

Mom's in town

Mom's in town this weekend. She, Grant, and Bobby are rocking out on Guitar Hero as I type. They're good. Me? Not so much, but that is okay. I am perfectly content to listen as I blog and read about the upcoming expansion pack for Sims 2 (Free Time, being released in February...) and fan speculation as to whether there will be another expansion pack before Sims 3 comes out. Since there are a lot of "hints" about sims 3 in this expansion pack (for example, a painting that can be hung on one of the walls is of "the future" and shows a neighborhood where the houses are more interactive with each other, and one of the new video games your sims can play on their pc's is "Sims 3."

ALso, I am watching the debate between Obama and Clinton on You-tube. I think tonight we are going to go in the jacuzzi, especially if it starts to rain (fingers crossed!) and maybe watch the rest of Clerks 2. I just noticed that Jay is wearing a "Buddy Christ" shirt (from Dogma...) SO cool. I want one.
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Monday, January 21, 2008

Vegas - thoughts

Vegas is getting a new revival for me. There was a time when I was sort of sick of the place. Really over it. I mean, it was just "ok." But now, I am all over the place again, and mostly just sticking with the strip!

First of all, the smoke situation is vastly improving, with more and more areas being limited in where you can and can not smoke. I don't come home with all of my clothes reeking of cigarette smoke. blech!

Second, I can now afford to attend some great shows. I LOVE that! In the meantime, they are developing more and more of my favorite types of shows: musicals and Cirque's. That thrills me.

Third, and, well, I never didn't enjoy this aspect.... I do love to eat. And what better place to eat then Vegas? hee hee.

Sunday, January 20, 2008

Vegas

Hi,
Sorry about the lack of posts. Back to school, slight addiction to my Nintendo DS (more on that later....)

But I wanted you to know that I am in Vegas with Grant, so check out the our vacation blog if you're interested!

Saturday, January 05, 2008

Nintendo DS

I got a Nintendo DS for Christmas. It is way cool - it is a gold one - a limited edition. I really like it!

One of the games I got is called "Brain Age 2" I like it because it is fun puzzles that you do to get your brain thinking and working. It also has Sudoku on it.

I also got Zelda - Phantom Hourglass - but I've just barely begun that game. I'll probably play that more in depth on the plane to Vegas in two weeks.

The third game I got was Super Mario Brothers, but I haven't really been able to play that - Andrew got a DS also, and he got Mario Party - so we traded for a while, and I have his Mario Party and he has my Super Mario Brothers. I have already beat the story mode on Mario Party, but it really is more fun to play together. (A cool thing about the ds is that if someone else has a ds, and they are within 30 feet, you can play some games together - like Mario Party, for example, with just one game cartridge... the other player temporarily can download the software.)

Other games, like Mario Kart (which Grant ordered in the mail and we got today) can connect online and play with other people who have the game around the world. SO far tonight, Grant has raced someone from India, someone from Japan, and people from around the US. cool, huh?

The last game I got, which could very well by my new video game obsession, complete and compact in my traveling Nintendo DS world (which can go every where I go) is Animal Crossing - Wild World. It consists of my little person (named Beejay) who has moved into a town populated by animals (I named the town Nahtazu - like Disney's Animal Kingdom's old slogan "Nahtazu" which let people know that the Animal Kingdom is "not a zoo..." get it?)

One of the cool things about it is it runs on real time - it is set to the time you set on your nintendo ds - so assuming it is set to real time, then if it is night time in real life, it is night time in your game - if it is noon, then it is day time in the game. It also follows seasons - if you play in January (as I am) then it is winter in the game - with snow on the ground sometiems, sometimes it snows, and the days have a cool blue cast to it - when you play in the summer, then the game is brighter and the weather adjusts accordingly.

The game is very open ended - you can fish and you can catch bugs, you can write letters to your new animal friends, and they will write you back. You find ways to earn "bells," the currency in the game. It seems like fun so far!

I am going back to include links in the post so check them out.