Old Friends

Yesterday afternoon, I went to see an old friend from high school. It is so funny. In both of our lives, so much has changed, and yet, to me anyway, our time together was just the same. We were good friends for a while, and our time yesterday felt very much like old times.

It got me thinking. Alot. I talked Rob's ear off last night. Then I talked Grant's ear off when he got home from work.

My water is boiling. As a side note, for those of you who have read my honeymoon blog, I found that really good Lipton orange, passionfruit, and jasmine green tea that I discovered on our cruise. They sell it at Vons and at Walmart.

Anyways...

There are some core values that my friend and I both have stuck to, and I think that makes a difference. We can relate, still, in many ways.

I think that if I bumped into other people from high school, our time together would be very strained. And would leave me feeling very sad. My meeting yesterday didn't make me sad. I feel very hopeful.

But also, I feel very introspective, as I often do after hearing news from the past.

It is so odd, becasue I feel like that wasn't my life. I don't know that person that went to Edison, played in the band, sung in the choir. Its like that whole part of my life is a hazy cloud. Rob keeps me grounded in this aspect. He REALLY knew me in high school, and he knows me now, and I think that what he tries to tell me all the time when I get into this mood is that, deep down, I am still very much the same person that I was in high school. I just don't think very many people knew who I really was. I don't think I let it be shown very much. But Rob saw it.

But still, the person I was, outwardly, is the mystery. I wish I could remember, so I could understand why...alas, I don't know if this is making any sense at all. And as I am sure a lot of people who are asking...does any of this really matter? Who cares who I was 10 years ago? The time has past. move on.

I know.

But its like this big hole that I don't remember, but I feel like I should be able to.

How can I figure out the big mysteries of life and the world if I can't even figure out the tiny mysteries that exist inside my own head?

Don't you love when I get in these introspective moods? Hee hee.